(Source: dead-lemons, via dead-lemons)
There are so many things I wish I could say to so many people
So many things I need to say sorry for, thank you for, and screw you for
There are so many things I wish I could do over, do differently
So many moments I wish I could re-live, not to change though, just to feel what I felt again, to unfade the memories a little
If I could could go back and know then all that I know now, I wonder how different life would be for me
How much happier or sadder
Whether I would feel safe or even more lost
If I could go back maybe I could make that first move, say it first and in time
Maybe I could find the courage to reach out for help earlier
And to help you, maybe i could stand stronger and make you stop, make you see what we would become if you continued
Maybe I would make much better choices, or maybe I would make much worse mistakes
I don’t know
And that’s the point I suppose: that I dont know. I dont really know anything
All I have are those memories and where they have brought me to now
And while some tear me apart others I will cherish for ever
So I guess all the what ifs and maybes are just pointless never ending chatter in my head
Because all those memories, good and bad, they did bring me to you, and i truly believe that without you, I might not have seen today with the same eyes.
"So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we came from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."
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The Perks of Being a Wallflower
Stephen chbosky
